That’s about right, but less hot and less crowding.  Though it is kind of nice that no one gives a crap about what neighborhood you are from and are less bourgie than any of the other gay bars I’ve visited before.  However, thank gawd Tim and I have been practicing saying “No” (video to come) because sometimes you just don’t want a 70 year old man with white shoes and calf high black socks sitting and staring at you.  I’m just not down for “waiting 5 minutes for the Viagra to kick in” (Tim).

However, this is about Stripper night.  Now, I can’t say I was impressed. Since there isn’t any full frontal nudity it was more like watching a go-go dancer get into uniform. But why spend 4 minutes pretending to taking off your clothes when it usually takes 15 seconds? One individual did have a gimmick, baseball uniform with bat routine. However, his performance fell flat when he couldn’t seem to catch the heavy beat of the bass with his gyrating hips, which only made it appear like he was having a seizure. I just want to be entertained, but I guess I’m too bourgie.  Another had some nice B-boy moves but I don’t think anyone appreciated that aspect, and I didn’t appreciate his rendition of Ke$ha’s “Animal.”

However, being bored and stepping outside Tim and I talked about an important life question: “What song would you strip to?”  I haven’t ever really thought about it.  But I feel like if I had to do something I would probably have Les Petite Swans recorded from the wings of the stage and projected onto the walls.  Which I would perform with the recording but once the lyrics started I would stop the head choreography and perform as if I’m stuck in this part that is supposed to allow me to be featured but in reality I’m stuck with the original meaning of these parts were supposed to be relatively unknown individuals.  and I think stripping from a tutu would be baller. but I’m not exactly sure how to go from the dancing to the stripping.  It would probably require a premature bow as part of the performance and a slide on dressing room.

The other option being I strip at a tragically slow pace, to the point where people aren’t sure if they are angry at the lack of action or they just don’t care to watch anymore.  But I’m not sure what song it would be to, maybe and instrumental something or other or maybe Lisa Loab’s “Stay”

-EPF

Things I do prefer about them: Update them at least once a year- I know that you love to play Farmville, but it would be nice to know what you look like if I randomly decide to drop you a line,  That they are a picture of you- same reason, That if you are going to post more frequently than twice a month that you choose a different kind of expression/image- your face 24 times in a myspace angle could just go in another album titled “I learned that one angle that makes everyone look ‘better’ and I’m too lazy to look for another one that works on myself” (maybe that is just too long and it doesn’t make you look better).

So I went through a friend of a friend’s profile picture album:

1. Two young boys- sons or grandchildren? alright maybe that day you felt that they meant the world to you
2. Some random logo- not you but we can let it slide since I have no idea who you are
3. Similar Logo says the name of the band- okay I’m glad you like them but not you or a band you are in so it really isn’t a good representation of you.
4. Sunset over a lake- Still no photo of you maybe put this in a photo album titled “I wanted to actually take a motivational poster photo”
5. Old picture of yourself and your mom- Okay at least you are in it, amusing because of the clothing, but your comment states she was a wonderful mom and grandma.  You might be focusing on the role of a woman is to be a mom.  So basically this is a picture of your children.
6. Family dog- Brindled Frenchie is a good choice, pass for now.
7. Easter motivational poster of a back lit cross and some word-  Still not you, but Christians believe that christ is in everybody so almost if I didn’t believe that humans were selected to believe in a higher power to promote the unification into a community that allowed us to have civilization because we could now fear a Head created by a head that better promoted his awesome thoughts because he obviously had them because he could think of this awesome God— totally stole my idea, btw
8. A CG back lit cross-  got it… still have no idea if I actually know who you are
9. Same as 7- okay you went back to 7 because you didn’t like it (all were posted on the same day) could you have deleted the middle one because if you didn’t like yourself represented that way then you shouldn’t
10. Monarch butterfly sitting on a flower- Neither you, nor a familiar individual, and you didn’t even take the photo yourself. Album titles “Things too look at when I’m sad”
11. Boys again- same unhappy faces….. maybe they don’t want their picture taken, but you do so they obviously are not you
12. dog
13. two dogs playing
14. Original frenchie as a puppy in a vest- I forgive your last two
15. two boys- closed mouth smile, more extremely overweight, I’m thinking about childhood diabetes
16. Small Digital image of Happy New Year- okay you probably wanted to tell people a happy New Year but you didn’t want to go to individual pages and type it out or send it over and over, but you probably did and you could have just made it your status
17. Happy new year again- Same day as the first one, still a tiny image but larger font…. Why did you change it?
18. Cartoon Christmas village- love christ and romantic ideas of holidays because that means family to you and you love your family
19. Fbook app generated photo that includes random photos from through out the year- none of them include you.
20. Young boy- you got into a fight with the other?
21. both boys- you obviously got into the fight after this was posted because you realized one almost had a genuine smile.
22. same picture but with a greeting card text box- hmmmmmm
23. old cartoon image- not you, and you probably aren’t that funny
24. children with father…

The rest are of children and animals… with one blurry photo taken from a camera phone, I’m not shocked by what I saw.  Anyways, all I’m saying is: your children are not your entire life, you have amazing moments that exist without them, you could be in a photo with them, images of as poor motivational cross are really not you- and it can be represented in your info section, I don’t judge what you look like but it would be nice to have a visual representation while I judge everything else you post.

-EPF

Thought of the day: Anticipating movement when there is no timing.  How can you say I wasn’t ready to go onto the next thing when it was time if there wasn’t a specific moment it was supposed to happen to begin with?

-EPF

Making a sound score with Explosions in the Sky “First Breath After a Coma” starting from 0::1::20 and a recording of the reading “It” by Kavi Ade.  Two different male bodies, a more fem and a more masculine.  Thinking about a trained dancing body and an untrained.  That even though we can’t completely relate to the instances and have the same oppression thrown at us by society and people on the street, we still are a part of a similar story.  Demonstrated by the easiness of relating to the movement and to each other.  Synch, qualities, shapes, bodies, and gendered bodies.

Ke$ha to Fergie: Oh my gosh, that’s so funny he thinks I can write

Fergie: she could probably throw glitter on you

Matt: I would love glitter

Ke$ha: I ran out, I was throwing it at ugly people earlier to get them away.

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Fergie talking about meat…. Ke$ha: Cannibal

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Ke$ha to Fergie: I have to go pee

After coming back a second later: Lines too long, I’m gonna go pee in someone’s handbag

I can check off find an appreciation for footware.  I looked at a pair of TOMs and I stated out loud “Those are cute,” and I wanted a pair for myself right then.  I’m also starting to enjoy boat shoes, and I guess I’ve always had a thing for Mary Jane Patent Leather Pumps.

Secondly, my phone background has always been:

And I was thinking I want to carry around chalk with me, as my bag has an undetectable expansion charm (see Harry Potter: Chamber of Secrets- The Weasley car  and Deathly Hallows- Hermione’s bag), and make hearts on the sidewalk.  That is legal, right?

Secondly, I still want to go downtown and perform on the street for donations for dance classes.

Thirdly, I had an idea for an Art project which will help me with another New Year’s resolution.  It will be a papier-mâché over a wire sculpture.  I’m think of making it similar to an amish doll, because I kind of had a thing for one when I was younger.

-EPF

A) at some point I need Gabby’s hair to be dripping wet when she is dancing; don’t ask me why, but that is what I see.

B) When I think of break-up I think of outside: forces, torn apart and separation.

C) Solo E could possibly entail the idea of my own mind constantly being in flux and having multiple thoughts about the same topics and different topics simultaneously craving the focus.

D) Duet E might explore ideas that I have been dealing/thinking about in concern to eating disorders: can you ever completely separate from them, is it you or an outside force, how much control a person can keep over it, the hidden aspects, and creating a facade.

E) garudandasana—seconde—grab—pull—-replace—continue

F) nautilus for  Trio E

I’m not talking about getting motivated to workout; I don’t have that problem.  I’m talking about the parking garage.  I tag along on my roommates guest pass because it has been totes burr so running outside isn’t pleasurable and I work for 9$ an hour for various hours.  So kinda have to go during “rush hour.”  However, still it isn’t even about finding a space, this is about courtesy and convenience.

A) the parking spaces are small.  Please take the time to actually be inside the lines.  You might have to reverse one or two times, but knowing that I’m not going to get pissed and key your car should make you want to get that much right.

B) when someone is pulling out of a parking spot they can’t see you.  Don’t speed past them to avoid collision, just stop.  They are actually giving you a spot to park…. fucking take it.  If you are trying to avoid walking, why are you at the gym?

C) when exiting the garage don’t just sit in the middle of the archway; no one can’t get passed you.  So don’t look confused when the people going in stop to let you out… We aren’t being nice, we are being agitated.

D) People entering the garage: there is no lane or middle when exiting.  Slow down and let the person out.

E) when someone has just reversed out of a spot they were probably just dealing with issue (A) so the probably have to make a wide turn to straighten out.  Don’t go towards this car trying to pull further to the side; let this person make the wide turn without having to worry about hitting your car and then pull forward once they are finally straightened-esque.

-EPF

For this discussion let’s talk about the two ideas within dance, set work and improvisation.   Some people prefer set works, often are able to pick up on them faster, and others prefer improvisation, often times preferring to explore movement.  Considering the two in terms of change, control and others: For the individual, set works is more stable, more controllable and less likely to be interfered  by others while improvisation is more dynamic, less controllable, and contains more opportunity for interference.

Set work: has paths, movements and timing bound.

Improvisation: open for discussion

I begin to question the preference for set work or improvisation for individuals and their openness to change and need of control in life.  Does the use of creating a “safe space” where outside forces are told to be less judgmental (looking glass self) or less invasive soften the blow of improvisations limitation of control and change for an individual by an other.  Also, when we work together for extended periods of time giving a face to the other does it allow for change easier?

I know that with improv I prefer to be in control, the instigator as I was once assigned, so the changes are less jarring.   If I am going to lose control I prefer it to be with someone I trust for their changes to be in my best interest, but if the change is too much it the negative affects are deeper.

-EPF

Most Surprising thing to Come out of my Mouth Today:

-I could cry right now

-We could all cry right now, but we just have strong walls

-My walls must be crumbling

-Then build a fortress

But it has given me the opportunity to try to stay relevant and work on reading research.  I’m still a little ADD and I’m taking more time absorbing the information, but I have started to awaken my analytical side and my curious mind.  The thing is I am graduating myself from squirrels to carnivores with this one, and that caught me off guard because I am moving on to some of the predators of my roots.

I remember my ethogram though and the hypothesis that I started to make from my observations.  I made some about the tail of a squirrel and how it could potentially act as a defense mechanism.  Whenever a potential predator was around a squirrel would take the scanning position- upside down on a tree head outward- and it would twitch its tail.  Visual predators as a Hawk, I suggested would be more likely to attack the moving tail than the body possibly giving the squirrel an opportunity to escape, however that may be.  I never came across research on the tail of a squirrel as I was focused on other things, but since I do have the memory of an elephant I remembered these observations.  And today I looked for information about squirrel predators and came across this site discussing the defense mechanisms of squirrels.

http://www.school-for-champions.com/behavior/squirrel_defenses.htm

-EPF